And just like that, the summer was over. Rae didn’t mind, not really. School meant the return to normalcy, familiarity, and things she could control. Whether she studied, did her assignments, had any detentions, or spent hours practising her spellwork, they were things that would unfold on her own time, and they were all things that made sense.
Nearly none of her summer had been good, and the 15-year-old found that she was still…incredibly…angry.
At the world? At herself? At her friends who’d run off one night, lost somewhere she couldn't follow?
It was hard to say. All Rae knew was that every time she found her body beginning to quiet again, a new, low flame would begin smouldering. Her limbs would fill with an uncomfortable warmth that flowed and pooled in her chest. The feeling wasn’t the fuzzy, feel-good sort. It didn’t make her feel light or airy; it didn’t satisfy the fantasies that spanned universes of escape in her mind.
It was ick and rot and unfulfilled vengeance that she had been told she would have to let go. 'It never happened,' they insisted. Even more, they insisted she pretend the same. What was a girl to do but put one foot in front of the other and throw herself back into her school life like it was the last bit of oxygen in the room?
So much had changed, but the thestrals were the same. Some of the carriages still squeaked. Entering the entrance hall, the portraits were still as nosy, enquiring on the summers of those who walked by.
The Slytherin table was the same, too. It sat by the Ravenclaw table as it always did, the emerald and silver banners flowing gently above it. The faces were the same. Most of them had been there the term before. There were even some who’d returned after the chaos that saw them skipping the previous year. But there was no Rosie, and sitting with her eyes toward the Ravenclaw table, she was reminded that Cassian wasn’t there either.
It was becoming its own ironic trend. When she'd first started Hogwarts, she was only ever put on the Hogwarts Express kicking and screaming. For the last few years, she'd gotten on willingly – almost eagerly – desperate to leave behind the city and the problems that never failed to find her whenever she was there. For as long as she lived, she never wanted to see another estate, never wanted to board another ship and never wanted to see her 'family' ever again.
Rae slumped onto the table, as she'd taken to doing at such feasts. She was anything but the optimistic and welcoming Slytherin prefect some may have expected.
"Looks like we got rid of Roan. Who d'you reckon they'll send down to the snakepit to replace him?" she asked no one in particular as her dark eyes scanned the staff dais.
There were a few missing; none she mourned. New faces. No food. Never any food. Had to make sure they were good and starving first.
Verdict is in | everybody's
GUILTY