Eira really needed to lighten up.
He'd thought she had all those years ago when they'd laughed and laid together under the stars, tendrils of smoke between them as they finally found some common ground. He remembered feeling some sort of kinship with her, in being misunderstood, in having a difficult background they'd both sooner forget. He knew, very well from all of his experiences over the years, that everyone handled trauma and family expectations differently.
But Benji wasn't a boy - or man - who would allow any of it to change the core of him. If he relinquished himself and his heart to a legacy, what would that leave him with? A name and a shell? What a dismal existence. He hoped Eira hadn't fallen into that trap.
"What do you mean she's not here. Where is she."
The smallest bend in Eira's cold, hard exterior, and it stirred something in the boy to know it was Rosie.
"What the fuck does that mean, Benji. Where is she."
"Okay," he said quickly at the second prompting, his voice lowering to barely above a whisper as his eyes drifted across the room for his own family. Somewhere behind them Matilda was shrieking about something - probably the outfit her granny had made her wear - and he was thankful for all eyes in the room turning to her. It gave him an opportunity.
He leaned in towards her, his face belying the seriousness of it all, and the own anger he felt towards his cousin's and friend's situation. "Last summer she - "
"Good evening. How are things going over here?"
Hmm? Benji immediately snapped up, standing straight and offering a polite smile to the man who had decided to interrupt their little reunion.
"We were just talking about you. Lev, Benji Laurence, a former classmate. Benji, Lev, my—fiancé."
Her sharp look and the way she stiffened around Lev didn't escape his notice, but Benji remained quiet, polite, offering her...fiance his hand to shake. "Good to meet you," Benji said with a calm ease that he had learned over the last two years. His uncle's training and carting him around to various galas, meetings and Ministry events hadn't escaped the boy. He was still Benji, but he could rein it in when needed.
Considering how uncomfortable Eira looked, it was needed and he wouldn't put her in an ugly position if he could help it. Still...
"How long have you two - "
His question was cut short as the room went quiet and Ellen descended down the stairs, the girl of the hour, ready to turn heads and catch herself a husband.
That was what these events were for, weren't they? Connections, alliances. Birthdays were just the excuse. He watched with tepid interest, noting he'd have to tease Ellen about all this when they got back to school in the fall, and he glanced over his shoulder for Rae.
He really should get back to her.
"Excuse us."
Benji smiled tightly, offering a little wave of dismissal, even as Eira shot him another of her looks. He wasn't going to be interfering in whatever that was, especially with his uncle in earshot.
Instead, he turned and headed back to his girlfriend, the prettiest girl in the room.
"Hey," he said warmly, taking her by the hand. "Was that you causing all that ruckus?" He smiled, tugging her close to him as he led her to the dance floor. "We're getting good at this gala, ball, masquerade bullshit. Dance with me and put the rest of them to shame?"
He'd thought she had all those years ago when they'd laughed and laid together under the stars, tendrils of smoke between them as they finally found some common ground. He remembered feeling some sort of kinship with her, in being misunderstood, in having a difficult background they'd both sooner forget. He knew, very well from all of his experiences over the years, that everyone handled trauma and family expectations differently.
But Benji wasn't a boy - or man - who would allow any of it to change the core of him. If he relinquished himself and his heart to a legacy, what would that leave him with? A name and a shell? What a dismal existence. He hoped Eira hadn't fallen into that trap.
"What do you mean she's not here. Where is she."
The smallest bend in Eira's cold, hard exterior, and it stirred something in the boy to know it was Rosie.
"What the fuck does that mean, Benji. Where is she."
"Okay," he said quickly at the second prompting, his voice lowering to barely above a whisper as his eyes drifted across the room for his own family. Somewhere behind them Matilda was shrieking about something - probably the outfit her granny had made her wear - and he was thankful for all eyes in the room turning to her. It gave him an opportunity.
He leaned in towards her, his face belying the seriousness of it all, and the own anger he felt towards his cousin's and friend's situation. "Last summer she - "
"Good evening. How are things going over here?"
Hmm? Benji immediately snapped up, standing straight and offering a polite smile to the man who had decided to interrupt their little reunion.
"We were just talking about you. Lev, Benji Laurence, a former classmate. Benji, Lev, my—fiancé."
Her sharp look and the way she stiffened around Lev didn't escape his notice, but Benji remained quiet, polite, offering her...fiance his hand to shake. "Good to meet you," Benji said with a calm ease that he had learned over the last two years. His uncle's training and carting him around to various galas, meetings and Ministry events hadn't escaped the boy. He was still Benji, but he could rein it in when needed.
Considering how uncomfortable Eira looked, it was needed and he wouldn't put her in an ugly position if he could help it. Still...
"How long have you two - "
His question was cut short as the room went quiet and Ellen descended down the stairs, the girl of the hour, ready to turn heads and catch herself a husband.
That was what these events were for, weren't they? Connections, alliances. Birthdays were just the excuse. He watched with tepid interest, noting he'd have to tease Ellen about all this when they got back to school in the fall, and he glanced over his shoulder for Rae.
He really should get back to her.
"Excuse us."
Benji smiled tightly, offering a little wave of dismissal, even as Eira shot him another of her looks. He wasn't going to be interfering in whatever that was, especially with his uncle in earshot.
Instead, he turned and headed back to his girlfriend, the prettiest girl in the room.
"Hey," he said warmly, taking her by the hand. "Was that you causing all that ruckus?" He smiled, tugging her close to him as he led her to the dance floor. "We're getting good at this gala, ball, masquerade bullshit. Dance with me and put the rest of them to shame?"
i'm always ready for a war again
who's gonna save me from myself












